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  • Writer's pictureJulia Heck

#winning

OMG LIFE IS SO GOOD!


When I first got diagnosed, I truly thought that my life was over. I was a "Stage 4 Cancer Patient"... of course my life was over. I'm so glad that I've been sharing my journey on here so that I can be reminded of how far I've come, but more-so, so that when others think that their life is "over", they can hear a story of someone who was in the same boat, but was really just getting started.

 

As much as I'd like to say I share the highs and lows, I can admit that when I'm in a real low, my first thought isn't blogging or sharing my story with anyone. I've been in an odd slump prior to this. I felt "fine", but something was just off. I couldn't pinpoint it, but I was constantly worried about where my life was going to go from here. A big thought being, "great, my cancer is shrinking, but what's going to happen to the other parts of my life: the To Heck with Cancer 5K, my move, my ability to excel in my career, my relationships, the way I look, etc." It was hard to look ahead and think it was all going to be okay because, quite frankly, it wasn't freaking okay.


I still stress about what's to come, but in the past few weeks, I've realized that stressing these different things really doesn't help ANYTHING.

 

My first step to trying to normalize my life was deciding that I was moving back to Jacksonville. I did this without knowing what the heck was happening with my cancer. I said, "you know what: screw it! Am I really going to live the rest of my life afraid to jump because I have cancer?!"... because in reality, I will always have to worry about the fact that I have cancer (even if I reach the ultimate cancer free goal)! I will always need scans, I will always be on meds, but the best part, I can get the drugs anywhere in the world.

 

In June I made it official to move back to Jacksonville in the middle of August. Making the official decision to move seemed to kick off a bunch of great things happening!

  1. My Non-Profit To Heck with Cancer is officially approved by the IRS as a 501(c)(3)--Call me CEO.

  2. The To Heck with Cancer event will be held virtually (booo), but it's still happening despite COVID-19!--Yay! (You can sign up here!!!)

  3. Work has been going really well and I've been able to continue working/excelling in my career even though I am completely remote (originally because of cancer, later because of COVID).

  4. I've come to take care of myself (eating/exercising) more than I ever have

  5. We'll save the best one for later...

Lot's of great things have happened, two of which wouldn't have even happened if I didn't get diagnosed.


While I still find myself sometimes sitting here and think about, "what cards will life hand me forever and will it be okay?" I do know that whatever is in the cards, it will be okay and I will be able to figure out how to best play my cards in order to make the most of life.

 

Here's your reminder that life is REAL freaking fragile.

  • Make sure you're making more time for your loved ones

  • Don't forget to call people to let them know you're thinking of them

  • Your work will in fact still be there tomorrow, 12 hour days aren't going to help you OR your company

  • Strive toward your goals (and write them down)

  • Take care of yourself & make your health a priority

    • STOP.MAKING.EXCUSES.

 

In a weird way, I feel like I've been given a second chance at life... While I think I would've been JUST FINE without having to go through the last six months, I think that I now have an even greater appreciation for each day on earth and I notice the little/simple things a lot more than I did before.


I sat here constantly worrying about what's to come, but it really didn't make a difference what I was thinking about. Whatever was going to be, would be. And now I need to stop being a crazy person and stop trying to control everything in my life because...

 

Not only did my last CT of my abdomen and MRI of my breast come back with smaller tumors than the ones from March, I just got a PET Scan that showed that my cancer is not active anymore!! The radiologist said, "this is one of the quietest PET Scans I've seen in a while". I can (but I also cannot) believe that this is all working!!

 

Tomorrow, I'm officially switching my treatment plan to an oral regimen and will only be going to the cancer center every two weeks to get blood work, and eventually only once a month! This is huge news seeing as I'm done with IV Chemo!! ...for now and hopefully forever... if my hair wants to grow back a little quicker that'd be COOLIO.


All of your guys' prayers, good vibes, juju, and whatever else you're sending are working. This is absolutely incredible and I couldn't be more thankful for everyone's support!!


Again, I know this isn't over, but it's over for cancer, I'm not done kicking it's ass.


Cheers to ALL the good things that happen in life! Tough times don't stand a chance!


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kbawden3
Jul 08, 2020

GREAT NEWS!!!!! YAY!!!! Keep on keeping on!!! Great plans for a beautiful girl inside and out!!!! Much love Julia!!!!!

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Indy Thomsen
Indy Thomsen
Jul 08, 2020

Truly #winning! I cannot wait to be in the same state as you and only be driving distance. I can’t wait to drink all the wine and laugh out loud that our neighbors call the cops. I can’t wait to have the best nights together. Lol! I keep reminding you that you’ve come a long way, even a year ago but I guess my opinion doesn’t matter 🙄😜. But seriously, I’m so, so happy I get to do life with you in the real shitty times and the best times. Love you gf ❤️

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