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  • Writer's pictureJulia Heck

What if...?

Here we are in week four of quarantine (I think... I've lost track).

What if this all just stopped?

What if this went on for another year?

What if I get COVID19?

What if you get COVID19?

What if all the grocery stores shut down for extended periods of time?

What if we run out of beds for patients?

What if we have to start making decisions of who to 'save' because we don't have enough supplies? What if I lose my job?

What if I have to start deferring payments that are due?

All of these what ifs and no one can answer ANY of them! It's awful. It's so hard to think of all of the possibilities and know that any of them could happen at any given time.


"By themselves, 'what' and 'if' are two words as nonthreatening as words can be. The second that they're put together, they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life."

-Lise Friedman


I've lived a lot of "what if", especially since I've been diagnosed. To be honest, even before this Corona outbreak, I've thought "what if" more than I thought about what was actually going on in the here and now.

Life requires a lot of planning, but as we've all learned, planning for the future, whether near or far, is great and all, but those plans can quickly be derailed and we need to learn to live in the present.

Sure, there is nothing better than planning something in your life and those plans coming together perfectly! But what about when that doesn't happen?

When I do plan and things don't go as I've expected, I've learned that it's best to feel upset or angry about plans being changed and really hone in on those feelings because then they're easier to let go. I take time to really focus on it and feel MAD and probably even cry about it. But then once I'm ready to let go of it, I notice it's a lot less heavy to carry if I've spent time recognizing how I'm feeling.

This is a hard time right now with all of the uncertainty, but unfortunately we have to continue to go though this fight and know that there will be brighter days ahead.

I challenge everyone, once they read this to say "what if... (insert attainable goal here)".

Then get up and actually do it. I'm telling you, as cliche as it sounds, focus on what you can control. Enjoy time in the sun, dive into a good book, or laugh at the funny pranks on tiktok and then do them (thanks mom for being the #1 culprit)! Enjoy one of my favorites featured below.

While I know it's not ALWAYS possible, living in the moment is a hell of a lot more fun than focusing on what ifs that are completely out of your control!

Cheers friends! xoxo

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